Yesterday was my birthday. Had a lot of fun~ :D thanks to Lee Jia Yin, Dexter, Jun Hao & Kee Kai. Thanks loads!!

felt the usual today. almost cried when i watched a mv by BigBang. It's called HaruHaru.
anyway, i bought loads and loads of clothes. made me happy to see the pretty pretty clothes. but now... i feel the pinch of being broke...




day 6 28/12/09 monday; 2.03pm
still hurts..

day 4. started reading The Secret. realised that all that i had been thinking of is coming true in bits.
those that i feared the most. so, from now i will only have GOOD THOUGHTS.
easier said than done but i will ensure this happens.

Like A Knife - Secondhand Serenade

I dream a lot, I know you say
I've got to get away.
"The world is not yours for the taking"
Is all you ever say.
I know I'm not the best for you,
But promise that you'll stay.
Cause if I watch you go,
You'll see me wasting, you'll see me wasting away

Cause today, you walked out of my life
Cause today, your words felt like a knife
I'm not living this life.

Goodbyes are meant for lonely people standing in the rain
And no matter where I go it's always pouring all the same.
These streets are filled with memories
Both perfect and in pain
And all I wanna do is love you
But I'm the only one to blame.

Cause today, you walked out of my life
Cause today, your words felt like a knife
I'm not living this life.

But what do I know, if you're leaving
All you did was stop the bleeding.
But these scars will stay forever,
These scars will stay forever
And these words they have no meaning
If we cannot find the feeling
That we held on to together
Try your hardest to remember

Stay with me,
Or watch me bleed,
I need you just to breathe.

Cause today, you walked out of my life
(Stay with me, or watch me bleed)
Cause today, your words felt like a knife
(I need you just to breathe.)
I'm not living this life

i will wait. as long as i believe in my thoughts.
26/12/09 Saturday ; 7.26pm

MERRY XMAS!!~

day3. trying my best not to think. dont want to but...
doesnt matter anyway. anyone knows a way to get drunk without alcohol?? can't get hold of any -.-

My Wish - Rascal Flatts

I hope the days come easy and the moments pass slow,
and each road leads you where you want to go,
and if you're faced with a choice, and you have to choose,
I hope you choose the one that means the most to you.
and if one door opens to another door closed,
I hope you keep on walkin' 'til you find the window,
if it's cold outside,
show the world the warmth of your smile,
but more than anything, more than anything,

My wish, for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it to,
your dreams stay big, your worries stay small,
You never need to carry more than you can haul,
and while you're out there getting where you're getting to,
I hope you know somebody loves you, and wants the same things too,
Yeah, this, is my wish.

I hope you never look back, but ya never forget,
all the ones who love you, in the place you left,
I hope you always forgive, and you never regret,
and you help somebody every chance you get,
Oh, you find God's grace, in every mistake,
and always give more then you take.

But more than anything, Yeah, and more than anything,

My wish, for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it to,
your dreams stay big, and your worries stay small,
You never need to carry more than you can haul,
and while you're out there getting where you're getting to,
I hope you know somebody loves you, and wants the same things too,
Yeah, this, is my wish.

My wish, for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it to,
your dreams stay big, your worries stay small,
You never need to carry more than you can haul,
and while you're out there getting where you're getting to,
I hope you know somebody loves you, and wants the same things too,
Yeah, this, is my wish.
this is my wish
i hope you know somebody loves you
may all your dreams stay big

a song that you liked. A song that belonged to you and V. now.. it's a song to describe how i feel.
merry christmas.

25/12/09 friday 11:40pm
wishing for the best. that life becomes better. for the both of us.

Stay Close, Don't Go - Secondhand Serenade

I'm staring at the glass in front of me,
Is it half empty?
Have I ruined all you've given me?
I know I've been selfish,
I know I've been foolish,
But look through that and you will see,
That I'll do better.
I know, baby I can do better.

[Chorus]
If you leave me tonight,
I'll wake up alone,
Don't tell me I will make it on my own.
Don't leave me tonight,
This heart of stone will sink 'til it dies,
If you leave me tonight.

Sometimes I stare at you while you are sleeping,
I listen to your breathing,
Amazed how I somehow managed to,
Sweep you off of your feet girl,
Your perfect little feet girl,
I took for granted what you do,
But I'll do better.
I know, baby I can do better.

[Chorus]
If you leave me tonight,
I'll wake up alone,
Don't tell me I will make it on my own.
Don't leave me tonight,
This heart of stone will sink 'til it dies,
If you leave me tonight.

And don't you know,
My heart is pumping,
Oh, it's putting up the fight.
And I've got this feeling,
That everything's alright.
Don't you see?
I'm not the only one for you,
But you're the only one for me.

If you leave me tonight,
I'll wake up alone.

[Chorus]
If you leave me tonight,
I'll wake up alone,
Don't tell me I will make it on my own.
Don't leave me tonight,
This heart of stone will sink 'til it dies,
If you leave me tonight.
Don't leave me tonight.

24december09; 5.08pm
missing you. <3

although i really miss him badly, i dont really want to talk to him. He really doesnt know how he feels.. It hurts. It hurts even more cause i dont know what he is thinking... maybe i will never get to know. christmas, birthday, new year... all i want now is for my rhino to be back..the confident rhino is used to know.. is it just the confidence part or is there even more to this? I wont give up and i hope he doesnt give up either.. maybe he will never see this, but now.. all I wish for is for him to be happy again..


always waiting;23/12/09 3:04pm Wednesday