Random Memories

2009-12-28T13:54:00.002+08:00

Yesterday was my birthday. Had a lot of fun~ :D thanks to Lee Jia Yin, Dexter, Jun Hao & Kee Kai. Thanks loads!!

felt the usual today. almost cried when i watched a mv by BigBang. It's called HaruHaru.
anyway, i bought loads and loads of clothes. made me happy to see the pretty pretty clothes. but now... i feel the pinch of being broke...

day 6 28/12/09 monday; 2.03pm
still hurts..

2009-12-26T19:17:00.002+08:00

day 4. started reading The Secret. realised that all that i had been thinking of is coming true in bits.
those that i feared the most. so, from now i will only have GOOD THOUGHTS.
easier said than done but i will ensure this happens.

Like A Knife - Secondhand Serenade

I dream a lot, I know you say
I've got to get away.
"The world is not yours for the taking"
Is all you ever say.
I know I'm not the best for you,
But promise that you'll stay.
Cause if I watch you go,
You'll see me wasting, you'll see me wasting away

Cause today, you walked out of my life
Cause today, your words felt like a knife
I'm not living this life.

Goodbyes are meant for lonely people standing in the rain
And no matter where I go it's always pouring all the same.
These streets are filled with memories
Both perfect and in pain
And all I wanna do is love you
But I'm the only one to blame.

Cause today, you walked out of my life
Cause today, your words felt like a knife
I'm not living this life.

But what do I know, if you're leaving
All you did was stop the bleeding.
But these scars will stay forever,
These scars will stay forever
And these words they have no meaning
If we cannot find the feeling
That we held on to together
Try your hardest to remember

Stay with me,
Or watch me bleed,
I need you just to breathe.

Cause today, you walked out of my life
(Stay with me, or watch me bleed)
Cause today, your words felt like a knife
(I need you just to breathe.)
I'm not living this life

i will wait. as long as i believe in my thoughts.
26/12/09 Saturday ; 7.26pm

2009-12-25T23:22:00.002+08:00

MERRY XMAS!!~

day3. trying my best not to think. dont want to but...
doesnt matter anyway. anyone knows a way to get drunk without alcohol?? can't get hold of any -.-

My Wish - Rascal Flatts

I hope the days come easy and the moments pass slow,
and each road leads you where you want to go,
and if you're faced with a choice, and you have to choose,
I hope you choose the one that means the most to you.
and if one door opens to another door closed,
I hope you keep on walkin' 'til you find the window,
if it's cold outside,
show the world the warmth of your smile,
but more than anything, more than anything,

My wish, for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it to,
your dreams stay big, your worries stay small,
You never need to carry more than you can haul,
and while you're out there getting where you're getting to,
I hope you know somebody loves you, and wants the same things too,
Yeah, this, is my wish.

I hope you never look back, but ya never forget,
all the ones who love you, in the place you left,
I hope you always forgive, and you never regret,
and you help somebody every chance you get,
Oh, you find God's grace, in every mistake,
and always give more then you take.

But more than anything, Yeah, and more than anything,

My wish, for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it to,
your dreams stay big, and your worries stay small,
You never need to carry more than you can haul,
and while you're out there getting where you're getting to,
I hope you know somebody loves you, and wants the same things too,
Yeah, this, is my wish.

My wish, for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it to,
your dreams stay big, your worries stay small,
You never need to carry more than you can haul,
and while you're out there getting where you're getting to,
I hope you know somebody loves you, and wants the same things too,
Yeah, this, is my wish.
this is my wish
i hope you know somebody loves you
may all your dreams stay big

a song that you liked. A song that belonged to you and V. now.. it's a song to describe how i feel.
merry christmas.

25/12/09 friday 11:40pm
wishing for the best. that life becomes better. for the both of us.

2009-12-24T17:04:00.001+08:00

Stay Close, Don't Go - Secondhand Serenade

I'm staring at the glass in front of me,
Is it half empty?
Have I ruined all you've given me?
I know I've been selfish,
I know I've been foolish,
But look through that and you will see,
That I'll do better.
I know, baby I can do better.

[Chorus]
If you leave me tonight,
I'll wake up alone,
Don't tell me I will make it on my own.
Don't leave me tonight,
This heart of stone will sink 'til it dies,
If you leave me tonight.

Sometimes I stare at you while you are sleeping,
I listen to your breathing,
Amazed how I somehow managed to,
Sweep you off of your feet girl,
Your perfect little feet girl,
I took for granted what you do,
But I'll do better.
I know, baby I can do better.

[Chorus]
If you leave me tonight,
I'll wake up alone,
Don't tell me I will make it on my own.
Don't leave me tonight,
This heart of stone will sink 'til it dies,
If you leave me tonight.

And don't you know,
My heart is pumping,
Oh, it's putting up the fight.
And I've got this feeling,
That everything's alright.
Don't you see?
I'm not the only one for you,
But you're the only one for me.

If you leave me tonight,
I'll wake up alone.

[Chorus]
If you leave me tonight,
I'll wake up alone,
Don't tell me I will make it on my own.
Don't leave me tonight,
This heart of stone will sink 'til it dies,
If you leave me tonight.
Don't leave me tonight.

24december09; 5.08pm
missing you. <3

2009-12-23T14:47:00.002+08:00

although i really miss him badly, i dont really want to talk to him. He really doesnt know how he feels.. It hurts. It hurts even more cause i dont know what he is thinking... maybe i will never get to know. christmas, birthday, new year... all i want now is for my rhino to be back..the confident rhino is used to know.. is it just the confidence part or is there even more to this? I wont give up and i hope he doesnt give up either.. maybe he will never see this, but now.. all I wish for is for him to be happy again..

always waiting;23/12/09 3:04pm Wednesday

2009-12-21T19:36:00.002+08:00

Broken-hearted Girl

You’re everything I thought you never were
And nothing like I thought you could’ve been
But still you live inside of me
So tell me how is that?

You’re the only one I wish I could forget
The only one I’d love to not forgive
And though you break my heart, you’re the only one
And though there are times when I hate you
Cause I can’t erase
The times that you hurt me
And put tears on my face
And even now while I hate you
It pains me to say
I know I’ll be there at the end of the day

I don’t wanna be without you babe
I don’t want a broken heart
Don’t wanna take a breath with out you babe
I don’t wanna play that part
I know that I love you
But let me just say
I don’t want to love you in no kind of way no no
I don’t want a broken heart
And I don’t wanna play the broken-hearted girl...No...No
No broken-hearted girl
I’m no broken-hearted girl

Something that I feel I need to say
But up to now I’ve always been afraid
That you would never come around
And still I want to put this out
You say you’ve got the most respect for me
But sometimes I feel you’re not deserving me
And still you’re in my heart
But you’re the only one and yes
There are times when I hate you
But I don’t complain
Cause I’ve been afraid that you would've walk away
Oh but now I don’t hate you
I’m happy to say
That I will be there at the end of the day

I don’t wanna be without you babe
I don’t want a broken heart
Don’t wanna take a breath with out you babe
I don’t wanna play that part
I know that I love you
But let me just say
I don’t want to love you in no kind of way no no
I don’t want a broken heart
And I don’t wanna play the broken-hearted girl...No…No
No broken-hearted girl

Now I’m at a place I thought I’d never be…Oooo
I’m living in a world that’s all about you and me…yeah
Ain't gotta be afraid my broken heart is free
To spread my wings and fly away
Away With you
yeah yeah yeah, ohh ohh ohh

I don’t wanna be without my baby
I don’t wanna a broken heart
Don’t want to take a breath with out my baby
I don’t wanna play that part
I know that I love you
But let me just say
I don’t want to love you in no kind of way..No..No
I don’t want a broken heart
I don’t wanna play the broken-hearted girl..No..No..
No broken-hearted girl
Broken-hearted girl No…no…
No broken-hearted girl
No broken-hearted girl

Beyonce

I promise myself to not think of you till I am ready
TIME OUT
21/12/09 monday

2009-08-29T13:18:00.001+08:00

White Horse - Taylor Swift

Say you're sorry
That face of an angel comes out
Just when you need it to
As I pace back and forth all this time
'Cause
I honestly believed in you
Holdin' on,
The days drag on
Stupid girl
I should've known, I should've known

That I'm not a princess
This ain't a fairytale
I'm not the one you'll sweep off her feet
Lead her up the stairwell
This ain't Hollywood,
This is a small town
I was a dreamer before you went and let me down
Now its too late for you and your White Horse,
To come around.

Maybe I was naïve,
Got lost in your eyes
I never really had a chance.
I had so many dreams about you and me
Happy endings;
Now I know

I'm not a princess
This ain't a fairytale
I'm not the one you'll sweep off her feet
Lead her up the stairwell
This ain't Hollywood,
This is a small town
I was a dreamer before you went and let me down.
Now its too late for you and your White Horse,
To come around.

And there you are on your knees
Begging for forgiveness,
Begging for me
Just like I always wanted,
But I'm so sorry

Cause Im not your princess
This aint a fairytale
Im gonna find someone, Some day
Who might actually treat me well.
This is a big world,
That was a small town
There in my rearview mirror,
Disappearing now.
And it's too late for you and your White Horse,
Now its too late for you and your White Horse
To catch me now.

Oh whoa whoa whoa-oh
Try and catch me now
Whoa-Oh
It's too late
To catch me now.

the story ends here. 26/06/09-28/08/09
wonderful days: 24june2009 08august2009
29august2009 13:15

2009-08-08T09:11:00.000+08:00

怎麼去擁有　一道彩虹
怎麼去擁抱　一夏天的風
天上的星星　笑地上的人
總是不能懂　不能覺得足夠

如果我愛上　你的笑容
要怎麼收藏　要怎麼擁有
如果你快樂　不是為我
會不會放手　其實才是擁有

當一陣風吹來　風箏飛上天空
為了你而祈禱　而祝福　而感動
終於你身影　消失在人海盡頭
才發現　笑著哭　最痛

那天你和我　那個山丘
那樣的唱著　那一年的歌
那樣的回憶　那麼足夠
足夠我天天　都品嚐著寂寞

知足的快樂　叫我忍受心痛

2009-07-05T17:04:00.002+08:00

Look. You may treat it as a joke but the tone you use only goes to show of your class.

pissedResa; 05/07/09 5:09 pm

2009-06-11T18:19:00.002+08:00

So many things that i want to do but too little time!!

i want to do as much as i can to help the less fortunate. study as hard as i can for my upcoming block tests. meet up with my dearest friends from yckss. play as hard as i can. hang out with my friends at takashimaya. eat and eat & eat &eat &eat some more. go for bungee jumping with gladys and drag whoever i can with me. EAT CHICKEN RICE!!! watch many many many movies. do my project work. aaah; so many many many things to do during this holidays.. TT

resa;loveStoeat,sleep
going for tuition in half an hour.
6.31pm 11/06/09 hearts <3

2009-05-09T18:31:00.003+08:00

おかえり
--------------------------------------
歌手: 絢香
作詞: 絢香
作曲: 西尾芳彦・絢香
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おかえり　sweet home
帰る場所　愛をありがとう

また平気なフリをして
悲しみの色を塗りつぶして　笑ってしまうんです
信じることの大切さ　わかってるのに
いざという時　疑ってしまうんです

空っぽの体　流れる時に
浮いてしまいそうになるけど
あなたのこと　抱きしめたい
このキモチが突き動かすの

おかえり　I'm home
一言で満たされる心
おかえり　sweet home
帰る場所　愛をありがとう
sweet home

自分のことばかりを考える大人はズルイんだと
思っていたんです
でも必死で変えることを
叫んでる人もいるんだと　やっと知ったんです

当り前の幸せなんか　この世界に一つもない
あなたのため　そう思えた
このキモチが突き動かすの

おかえり　I'm home
スピードが加速してく毎日
おかえり　sweet home
変わらない　ずっとある景色
sweet home

探して　なくした
心の傷が
立ち向かう　強さに変われたのは
「おかえり」があったから

おかえり　I'm home
一言で満たされる心
おかえり　sweet home
帰る場所　愛をありがとう
sweet home

おかえり　I'm home
大丈夫　あなたがいるから
おかえり　sweet home
待っててね　もうすぐ着くから
sweet home

one of the sweetest songs i ever listened to.
credits to: http://crystal-ise.vox.com/library/post/lyrics-translation-okaeri-%E3%81%8A%E3%81%8B%E3%81%88%E3%82%8A-ayaka-%E7%B5%A2%E9%A6%99.html

okaeri;ayaka <3
resa;6.40pm 9/05/09

2009-04-26T21:37:00.002+08:00

seriously tired of listening to the same arguments over and over again. what on earth is with the screaming even when they are just a metre or so apart from each other. sounds ridiculous doesn't it? the feeling is numb already and i don't feel a thing for each party any longer.

adults are just as immature as what they call us. believe it or not.

resa is pissed; 9.55pm 26/04/09

2009-04-18T18:55:00.002+08:00

Theresa is uber tired.
did 10 hrs of cip today with yj ODAC at amk. health mapping exercise. how should i put this?.. i never thought that there were people living like 2 blocks away from mine living in a state which even people like me feel kinda uncomfortable. the less privileged in Singapore are so well hidden that we never get to see people who truly need help around us. there are tons of people who are much less privileged than us and still people do not notice this until stuff like this comes up. what we did was super exhausting but something that made me feel happier and much more satisfied as a person. the sense of achievement is indescribable and priceless.

7:10 pm signing out;resa <3

2009-04-14T17:48:00.001+08:00

PISS ME OFF SO MUCH!!!

get a life & leave me alone.

pissed; theresa 14.04.09 5:55pm

2009-03-17T10:13:00.002+08:00

RESA is sick again..TT fever of 38.7 when i went to the doctor yesterday. didn't go to school today and i feel like i can't feel my nose anymore. Resa does not feel good missing school. :(

17/03/09 10.23 am with a blocked nose.

2009-03-10T19:15:00.009+08:00

Just realised that i have this photo on my friendster. cute right?oh my gosh!!! totally adorable la. shameless at this but still i have to say that this might be one of my best photos in my life.. freaking adorable can? aww!~ the days when i was still pure and innocent. long gone were the days..ahh cnt take it man..

then here is a crappy piece of i dunno what that me and priya created when we were in sec 2. somehow crappy stuff happens to appear more on my friendster photo. no idea why though..(when we were still very much into Singapore Idol and Paul Twohill..)

Crazy people in Pulau Semakau. darlings hui wen; su; silvereen; mira when we were in sec 2 also.. happiest moments.

master piece done by mr phua in sec 2 also. dunno why i still have it in my friendster also. why am i raiding my friendster for photos?..

301 Family Tree!! Ms Sin at the top. I'm at the top right hand corner!!~ yeah..<3>

drama seniors with darling Natasha on our last day as official active memebers. BUT once a drama member ALWAYS a drama lover..<3>

Drama seniors in action again. photo of us in NAFA trying to act artistic by giving this type of feel in the photo but ended up not being able to see anyone's face except for santhi. we look like ants.. but me at the side giving the act cool feel. makes me wonder how i swallowed my own cuteness away. did i eat it up when i was too hungry?..

(to be continued...)

10/03/09 7.50pm hungry.. going for dinner!!~ <3>

2009-03-08T20:07:00.003+08:00

I AM BORED!!~

just felt like posting.. we have CVD(Celebrating Values Day) coming up this sat and both my class and cca are struggling with the preparation. omg!! And i feel super confused now. i wonder if i will be able to handle nyaa gold plus sch work plus tests and promos and ocip?. HELP!!~

resa is still peeling like a snake. better find some cream before i look like i am suffering from some severe skin disease.

chilling.GP tuition started..TT no more sunday mornings to sleep in anymore. TT
8.20pm resa is tired..

2009-03-02T22:05:00.012+08:00

On the ferry back with instructors michael, zac and rain with the qi xian nus..

after the climb up gunung bintan

RESA's BELOVED QI XIAN NU!!~

26/02/09-01/03/09

Resa is super dark now. Just came back from camp in bintan yesterday. i really realized how to appreciate the civilization and whatever little technology i have with me now. Bintan was not as developed as we thought it was. imagine all the resorts, spas, water sports etc etc.. but all we had at the camp was open air showers without heaters(and also without cubicles), 3 toilets for girls(2 squat n 1 sitting all without flush systems so we have to pour water into the toilet bowl)- people also bathe in them cause there are taps in them. super gross cause when you try to use the toilets the toilets are flooded half the time. tents, ok the normal camp stuff afew common toilets further away, and loads of insects(ok i am not fussing bout these cause i am not that pampered but i am super irritated by the super pampered girls who start screaming like crazy at tiny bugs). and we had to climb gunung bintan straight after getting down from the ferry. felt kinda sick while on the ferry too..But the funny thing was somehow we didn't feel as tired as going to school when we are waking up like 2hrs earlier than usual. it was super fun attacking people with water fights for no reason during the dragon boating esp. having the whole class attacking the instrustors. throwing the instructors into the resort pool after a challenge cause the instrustor threw water on us first..hehe(ok i admit it, we were not exactly following the rules of the swimming pool. we are not allowed to swim in the pool when not properly attired + there were tourists in the pool and they were s'poreans oops. the other instructors were cheering us on when we did that though..&the instructor didn't even struggle when he kenna carried over lor. cause it was the second time in the same hour that he kenna that. he was already wet anyway.XD) next was the campfire. (everyone all super high. don't know what we ate during the bbq that we all totally lost our senses. but it was super fun..) then the rain had to come to spoil the fun so we had to rush back to our tents in the rain and pack our stuff of evacuate to an indoors function room all drenched in the rain. i can tell you that being wet the whole day does not smell pretty. &not including the number of people drenched the whole day all squeezing into an air conditioned room. (and when we have been wet the whole day for the pass few days does not help at all thank you very much..) but well not that i am complaining for having the air con.. fell asleep almost immediately. left bintan the next day. ok but before that was packing up the tents. felt super disapointed cause we had to pack the tents of girls whom have not packed them up on their own. and they left countless personal stuff that i do not want to elaborate on inside the tents. (and the guys were there to help pack the tents too. so ashamed of these girls. and also, because of the rain, the tents had bits of mud, soil and grass when we packed it in. pity the next batch of people using these tents) well i think that i forgot to mention that me and six other girls from my class got seperated into another wave from our class so we stuck together for the first and last day of the camp. (we became kind of crazy being seperated from 112<3)so yeah we arrive at the camp as the qi xian nu and left as the same qi xian nu just darker.^^ super love my girls for sticking with me throughout the hike up the mountain and keeping me entertained during the ferry ride to make sure that i do not feel sick. (although doing the whole ipoh e tai tai cheer continously till the damn chicken dies really pisses me off. or was it their main objective.oh right... then the instructors taught us some crazy cheers and the guys that felicia keeps calling "tai tai" wrongly - real name zac told us a seriously dumb lame joke la. why does the bird fall after flying under the aeroplane? ans. cause the plane was too noisy and the bird when ahh so noisy and places its wings at its ears. dumb right?..) ok then when we reached school the qi xian nu spilt up cause i had to go home while the rest went to long john silver in North point to meet some other people from our class. i on the other hand went to mac with my parents and ate one upsize mcchicken meal, one mcspicy burger and one mcnugget meal. scary? not only that.. for dinner it was mcchicken upsized again with ice-cream. yeah!! civilisation is so good. love s'pore loads. anyway, just wanna say that i really love singapore with all of my <3)
02/03/09 11.20pm gotta go to school tomorrow and super tired from school today. as usual and we just came back yesterday& we had to GO TO SCHOOL!! WHAT SENSE IS THIS?.. promised myself not to complain but just can't help it!!

2009-02-14T23:00:00.003+08:00

happy VALENTINES day!!!
eating loads of chocolates today to destress.. excuse to eat more XD

theresa + food = love + happiness
self created theory... HERE TO HUIWEN. A NEWLY UPDATED POST!!!~

LOVE IS IN THE AIR!!~
23.10 14/02/09 THERESA munching on toblerones<3
mugging econs.. T.T so much for VALENTINE'S..

2009-01-26T23:46:00.002+08:00

26/01/09 11:52pm
chinese new year. Finally 2 straight days of break from work. (ok.. not so much of a break) tired to the max but doesn't stop me from using the internet to watch jap dramas... i highly encourage everyone to watch a drama called bloody monday. super nice... anyway, ramdomness of the post is just to get away with the complains of people who say that my blog is dead for months and that i should revive it. (*nudge nudge* hints...) Happy Lunar New Year everyone... loves; theresa

2008-09-15T11:56:00.002+08:00

Exams are finally over!~ Finally get to touch my dearest computer again..

going to watch Hana Yori Dango tomorrow.. Theresa hearts Oguri Shun+Matsumoto Jun!~
off to lunch; 12:38 noon

2008-09-03T16:53:00.003+08:00

Hana yori dango final!!!
opening in cinemas tomorrow!!~
unfotunately..prelims continue next week..

JIA YOU!!!!~

2008-08-24T17:48:00.001+08:00

Prelims begins tomorrow. Off to mug for the next few weeks.
Theresa signing off mood;totally foul

can't wait for exams to be over!!!~

2008-08-13T17:01:00.003+08:00

hee. yet another post. i think that my blog might be on hiatus for quite sometime till i get over with my studies!!~ but before that, i am gonna post two photos taken by geraldine during the victoria theater concert the other day.

ME AND THE 'RICH TAI-TAI' LYDIA

MUMMY PRIYA AND ME!!~ <3

2008-08-10T21:13:00.002+08:00

uber tired today. my nose is all runny and i just can't force myself to touch my homework.. how i wish the holidays never end; or just let the o'levels pass by quickly. can't wait to take a long break from the textbooks. another week of tests and the upcoming exams!! argh!~ & just when all the excitement of the beijing olympics are around; the tests and exams have to spoil the fun. this year is seriously gettin me pissed!..

WHEN WILL EVERYTHING BE OVER?!..

2008-08-05T17:56:00.004+08:00

Decided to start on my first post today.. This week is gonna be a super duper tiring week. 1 geog test today, humanities +1 test;chemistry test on electrolysis test; poa common test tomorrow and A-maths common test on thursday. thank god for the coming national holiday to keep my alive!~
TODAY
Mdm Ye showed us THE SECRET by jay chou during chinese period. pretty messy show but all of us refused to move out of the classroom before finishing the last few minutes of the show..haha. Physics class passed super fast and we didn't really realise it. PE was super torturous. What were we doing? the thing that i suck at the most. Dancing!!! we had to learn the ACES day dance and let me tell you this, i screwed up big time!~ my hands and legs just don't connect to my brain and i have totally no idea why..DUMB. reminds me again why i never went for hip hop enrichment after my first year in school.
RECESS!!!!!~ yum spaghetti. totally made my stomach feel great!~
emaths passed just as quickly as physics. although it was meant for us to ask Mr Chiang questions that we totally don't understand. but we ended up studying for humanities like mad. ok maybe only for me and yuhsuan.. next lesson was humanities. nothing much really happened besides the geography test. after that we started moving towards the canteen for our emaths +1. For some reason i just felt hyper and priya was like "eh other people finish test super depressed how come you so hyper?". weirdo me.. sometimes i also wonder what the heck is wrong with me. craziness i guess. emaths +1 was like the most relaxed time of the day. it was on speed-time graphs and most of us finished it within 20 mins or so. the rest of the time was spent "studying of the ss +1 tomorrow" but we ended up crapping. that's just what we do the best.
ok.. LUNCH.. YUMMY AGAIN. but really, Priya was being super irritating. she asked me to follow her to buy a drink and i thought ok.. follow her to the drink stall. But...she wanted me to follow her to the vending machine like 4-5 feet away from where we were sitting. crazy girl!~ madness i tell you. Huiwen was really feeling very sick but Priya was saying super lame stuff and made her laugh till it became abit better i guess. on the way up to amaths remedial; i was being the usual playful me and i decided to pull a prank on Geraldine. She passed me the pack of chips that silvereen bought for the both of us to share and ran off. i acted pissed and stared at her with me "POWER" glare. Her facial expression was really precious! so funny.. but being professional; i held back my laughter and just changed my tone and told her 'stop playing la'. She as expected, totally freaked out!~ silly girl thinks that i will get angry over this thing. after that, i spent the rest of the time while waiting for the teacher acting like an Ah Lian..
Amaths remedial was by far the most serios period in school. we really did our work and not spend the time slacking.but anyway, Priya returned me my thumb drive today with a few of the photos we had taken during the year.
401 CLASS CHALET GALS

DRAMA SENIORS ON THE LAST DAY

MOTIVATIONAL CAMP 17/07/08
301 BABY PHOTOS